I am the first to admit, writing is a challenge for me. I don’t do it very often even though many people say its great therapy to get stuff off your chest. Reading back in my posts, I am thinking……..WOW I whine ALOT! But my life has been very challenging these last few years. I read other blogs and I am struck by true courage and grace and compassion whereas here, its just my place to put my secret anger, fear and frustration and sometimes joy.
I have not chosen JOY in my life thus far….and I don’t know why. My disease is not nearly as advanced as some, I have a wonderful son, loving family great friends and a roof over my head. So why can’t I see all of this? Why do I dwell on the negative and get all angsty and rebellious? I dont know.
The date for my Lap-band surgery is getting closer – within the next 3-4 weeks. I can’t wait to lose this weight. I need more energy, less pain so I can exercise, less depression, lesss……of me! LOL
It really amazes me that anyone actually reads/follows my blog….and its an unexpected good feeling to know people out there maybe understand a little of why I am the way I am. I am still trying to figure it out myself.
I am very random today so I am gonna post some random pictures I like too…
September 21, 2011 at 4:02 AM
Nice pics!
We like your blog because you are honest, we all know life isn’t roses all the time and it takes guts to let everyone know that hey this is how i’m really feeling inside. we know you have good things in your life, a wonderful son, so keep doing what your doing because you have the guts to say what a lot of us are’t able to and i really do hope that the band works for you and that you keep getting nearing to where you want to be.
September 21, 2011 at 8:11 AM
Thank you so much, that means alot
I guess I am like a lot of bloggers who only write when they are upset and when everything is good….I forget to put down the good stuff too :-p I gotta record the good AND the bad….that is what I will work on next.
Thank u again for the kind words, Steph
September 21, 2011 at 6:04 PM
I dont’ think that you are negative!! You’ve got a lot going on and this is a wonderful outlet to achieve resolution. If people think that you are too down, then they don’t need to read your posts!! But as for myself, I enjoy keeping up with your life. Things will get better. You do have a wonderful support system, but having support doesn’t mean that you can’t feel down or feel depressed sometimes. We all fall into that trap at times. Doesn’t give anyone to judge you on your life. We are here for you and hope that life’s journey only improves. We all can use encouragement!!
September 21, 2011 at 7:58 PM
Thank you Lynn! that is so sweet, and it is very humbling to know that someone actually wants to read my posts
Its hard for me to make friends in real life, so i really enjoy having someone actually respond to my writing. I added your blog to my list and want to start reading yours too. (((HUGS)))
Jenn